With the new year and especially with the end of my high school thesis project, the countdown has truly begun for me: 3,5 months from now I’ll be sitting my finals and, if all goes well, I’ll be receiving my diploma in 5. Time is a weird and wonderful thing: I remember thinking how I had 6 years to work my way through before I’d finally be done with high school – and now the time has come.
Yes, I’ll be closing a chapter in my life this summer. And that’s scary. Much like little Red Riding Hood in Into the Woods, I’m excited and scared. Excited, because anything could happen! Scared, because… anything could happen. Once I have my diploma, I am not required by law to go to school anymore. I can do whatever I please (within the limitations that my age brings, of course), whenever I please, wherever I please. The amount of choice that I have overwhelms me.
I’ve known for years that I was going to take a gap year and I continue to stand by that choice. But what at first mostly sounded like fun, comes with some additional clauses: the very real risk of doing nothing at all. When you don’t have anywhere to be per se: you live with your parents and you’re not enrolled in any form of education, you could very well stay in bed all day and no one would stop you. Well, my mom would probably start worrying and shoo me out from under my comforter, but you get the gist.
I have a list of things that I want to do this year (from now until September 2017 – more on this in this week’s video), but I can’t do all of it and I have no clue how much of it is actually feasible. A distant dream is slowly but surely becoming a reality and I have to deal with it. I don’t know if I’m ready yet, but I’ll make sure I will be.
What is on your horizon?
Love, Ruby
Ruby in the Sky 
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